memories of the past

WARNING: kinda senti mode here! :)

when i woke up this morning, i saw my tita packing our things.. well yeah.. we're moving out! BUT not too far.. cause we're probably just moving from one unit to the other.. the same building! weird! :)

anyway, i saw some pictures from the past (naxx..so dramatic ang dating.. trust me.. its not how it sounds like, you know mushiness...haha). saw some pictures of me and lala. we used to be really close. as in like sisters.. did all the stuff together.. kept no secrets from each other.. helped one another.. damayan talaga through gimiks and badtrips.. i guess i kinda miss her.. our moments together..

so our friendship started in a weird way.. my so-called boyfriend at that time liked her and all and i thought that she was flirting with him and the story goes on.. but i guess even if it started the craziest way, we had that bond.. naging super close kami to the extent na kung di kami napagkakamalang magkapatid or 'kambal' e napagkakamalang "kami" (haha! funny sobra! lesbians? haha).. i have so much memories of our "good times" together..

we celebrated holidays together (name it: christmas, new year, holy week.. as in halos lahat!) since we're both only child and our parents weren't around much.. we lived together, we relied on each other on almost everything, she knew me more than anyone else knew me (as in talo nya magulang ko!) and vice versa. there was once pa nga this incident wherein i got really pissed off with my boyfriend so i threw the ring he gave me. lala knew that i will regret that.. and ofcourse i did.. when i was all senti and telling her about how stupid i thought i was.. she handed me the ring i threw away.. she kept the ring when she found it knowing that i would want it back someday.. thats how much she knew me.. para bang she knows how i would feel about any situation more than me. there are a lot more stories i can tell but id rather not.. it will just make me feel really bad.. i really thought we would remain friends forever though..

well, i guess people change.. people get fed up.. ofcourse our friendship wasnt all that happy.. we had our differences - we were actually different in most ways. i guess sometimes, your friend chooses the path you dont agree with because of fear that it will not do her any good.. but who are you to say right? yep! she got into something i really didnt like. i tried to talk her out of it but she wouldnt stop. i guess i just slipped away from her. my mom and tita told me that i didnt do everything i could have done. they told me i was actually a bad friend for leaving her that time. but i swear i did everything i could. and i am sure i was never a bad friend. she was kinda lost when we first became friends. and i was by her side, never leaving her for all those crazy times. but this time, it was just too much for me to take. its unfair how some people would think im selfish and that i was a bad friend. but atleast my friends understand why i had to do what i did. they say i made the right decision. i guess it really would depend on how you see it...

my point? i suppose there is really no point.. i was just reminicing.. the good times and the bad.. i guess its true what they say.. friends come and friends go.. atleast each friendship gives us some lessons and ofcourse leaves us with memories we can recall...