crush it no more :-p

i went out with my girlfriends yesterday. we were talking about this "crush" thing and realized that it is super stupid! haha. i mean hello? im not in high school anymore! maybe i felt something.. but thinking about it now, i think it was just nothing..

sometimes you feel 'something' for a person because you are assuming that he is feeling the same 'something' for you. you assume this because of some of the other person's actions and because you want to believe that there is definitely 'something going on'. and after you realize that the feeling is not mutual, it's just really easy to let it go.. come to think of it.. its just a "crush".

my point? NOTHING! :) i guess my cousin is right. i just wanted to feel weird, confused, problematic of something because it has been a long time since i have actually talked to them about what's bothering me. maybe i just made this all up to spend time with my girlfriends and for them to give me some love! :-p

Weird thing - they call "crush"

Hay.. so its been like forever since i last posted anything here. Why so? Simple.. I've been busy and therefore there weren't much interesting things to be posted here than my routine (wake up - take a bath - drive - work - drive - shower - sleep). I'm not saying though that for the last months i have not posted here, my life was nonsense..there were ups and downs, events which were worth remembering, but i guess my point is i was just so damn BUSY to write anything non-work related. But since I am in the mood, i just thought i'd give an update on what's been up lately? :)

Well, I think I've been having a "crush" (eeew... old school sobra! pang high school lang yan! haha) to one of my closest friends. And the problem is, because it has been a very, super, exaggeratedly long time since i last had a crush, i don't know how to handle the situation. It's just that it's natural for me to be "ilang" to that person once I've realized that I like him (i guess this holds true to others too?). So the problem is, i might have been acting strange to that person that he now knows that i like him! (hassle!!!) And super nakakahiya diba? Hahaha! Non-sense! Anyway, I am just thinking now that I should just let it go.. not because he might now know i like him and super dyahe yun, but because I don't want to ruin our foundation. I mean hello? He is like one of the people I can really talk to about anything. Sayang naman if because of my weird thing for him, that closeness disappears. I've been there.. so dapat I know by now na di dapat. Here's the thing, i had this "bestfriend" for the longest time (like bestfriend ko sha since grade 6?), and when we went off to college we like felt that the "platonic" thing isn't working anymore.. so we decided to go to the next level.. the thing is, it didn't work out for us.. so now, we're not even close anymore.. we aren't enemies or whatever.. but the closeness isn't there na. So, looking back, i kind of regret that we tried to be a couple. But what if it didn't work out because it wasn't the right time yet pala? Hay.. i dont know why im getting stressed right now in the first place.. e like ko lang naman sha? So what diba? E di i like him! tsk.. non-sense! As i've said siguro nga I'm like this right now kasi it's been forever since i last had a "serious" crush on anyone. But, what the hell! Let it go man! As if!

So, wala lang.. non-sense lang ;) (minsan na nga lang ako mag-post, i chose to be non-sense pa no? haha. whatever tlga!)