Hatin' DSL

Hell! I'm really pissed off! I wanna kill PLDT!

So, i've been working in a different shift for the past few days.. try 12MN to 8AM.. coolness huh? For this kind of shift, we're allowed to work from home.. but who knows that DSL will make a hell out of my life during this time? argh! I first realize that my DSL is not working on my first night.. then the rest is history...

And because of this DSL disruption, my dad and I had one of our biggest fight. You know the feeling when you are soooo irritated about something and someone just keeps pushing you to the limit? well, thats what happened. he was blaming all the hassle on me when i was doing my best killing the service center of DSL. i told him to stop since i really was irritated and annoyed already. but as usual, my dad just kept on annoying me. he loves is that way. ang hilig mangasar.. so there.. i lost it.. i was really really pissed off so.. natulak ko sha.. nakurot ko sha all over.. as in nanggigil ako.. and get this.. for the first time in a million years.. i cried so loud that i though i was dying! haha funny.

i guess thats what you get for having DSL connection in your life. so guys, maglipat na kayo ng broadband! hahaha :))

memories of the past

WARNING: kinda senti mode here! :)

when i woke up this morning, i saw my tita packing our things.. well yeah.. we're moving out! BUT not too far.. cause we're probably just moving from one unit to the other.. the same building! weird! :)

anyway, i saw some pictures from the past (naxx..so dramatic ang dating.. trust me.. its not how it sounds like, you know mushiness...haha). saw some pictures of me and lala. we used to be really close. as in like sisters.. did all the stuff together.. kept no secrets from each other.. helped one another.. damayan talaga through gimiks and badtrips.. i guess i kinda miss her.. our moments together..

so our friendship started in a weird way.. my so-called boyfriend at that time liked her and all and i thought that she was flirting with him and the story goes on.. but i guess even if it started the craziest way, we had that bond.. naging super close kami to the extent na kung di kami napagkakamalang magkapatid or 'kambal' e napagkakamalang "kami" (haha! funny sobra! lesbians? haha).. i have so much memories of our "good times" together..

we celebrated holidays together (name it: christmas, new year, holy week.. as in halos lahat!) since we're both only child and our parents weren't around much.. we lived together, we relied on each other on almost everything, she knew me more than anyone else knew me (as in talo nya magulang ko!) and vice versa. there was once pa nga this incident wherein i got really pissed off with my boyfriend so i threw the ring he gave me. lala knew that i will regret that.. and ofcourse i did.. when i was all senti and telling her about how stupid i thought i was.. she handed me the ring i threw away.. she kept the ring when she found it knowing that i would want it back someday.. thats how much she knew me.. para bang she knows how i would feel about any situation more than me. there are a lot more stories i can tell but id rather not.. it will just make me feel really bad.. i really thought we would remain friends forever though..

well, i guess people change.. people get fed up.. ofcourse our friendship wasnt all that happy.. we had our differences - we were actually different in most ways. i guess sometimes, your friend chooses the path you dont agree with because of fear that it will not do her any good.. but who are you to say right? yep! she got into something i really didnt like. i tried to talk her out of it but she wouldnt stop. i guess i just slipped away from her. my mom and tita told me that i didnt do everything i could have done. they told me i was actually a bad friend for leaving her that time. but i swear i did everything i could. and i am sure i was never a bad friend. she was kinda lost when we first became friends. and i was by her side, never leaving her for all those crazy times. but this time, it was just too much for me to take. its unfair how some people would think im selfish and that i was a bad friend. but atleast my friends understand why i had to do what i did. they say i made the right decision. i guess it really would depend on how you see it...

my point? i suppose there is really no point.. i was just reminicing.. the good times and the bad.. i guess its true what they say.. friends come and friends go.. atleast each friendship gives us some lessons and ofcourse leaves us with memories we can recall...

the routine

i know.. i havent been updating my blog for who knows how long! this just means that my life is dull.. my life is boring.. and im a lazy person who doesnt want to do anything interesting.. there is really nothing to tell about me right now.. oh well!

i have a routine.. the usual routine for boring people (no offense to others who have the same routine though.. hehe) - wake up, work, sleep. its a cycle! a crazy cycle i must say.. but you know the weird part about it? im really fine with it. i dont feel like im missing out on stuff.. i dunno.. maybe im just getting old? yikes... scary thought! *erase*

i hope one of these days, something exciting comes my way.. i need to live life! i cant believe im too lazy to have fun.. me? lazy to have fun? hmm.. maybe its just a phase.. i guess i just need some rest to charge.. and when im all energized, i guess ill rule again! hahaha! whatev!