my tamahome..

im not sure if i will make sense of what im going to post here but i think i need to let it out somehow since my friends would not listen to me anymore! (i understand them..really! haha) i think im in love with an anime character. but hey! come to think of it, in this anime series (Fushigi Yuugi), Miaka (a highschool student who became the priestess of Suzaku) fell in love with a character from the book - Tamahome. So why wouldn't it be possible for me to fall in love with Tamahome who is initially a character in the book who became a character in an Anime series?

honestly, i think im crazy! i just can't stop thinking of tamahome.. not to mention that i read the manga a couple of times and watched the anime series for God knows how many times. still, i keep on looking for tamahome that makes me go gaga over the manga and the DVDs again. tsk... this is getting scary dont you think?

but hey! this is just a phase.. i know i'll get over it.. im actually getting over him.. haha! this is really weird! maybe i just love that the characters in the story love each other unconditionally (hey im not a mushy person i swear!). maybe tamahome's character is just so gorgeous.. and lovable.. hay... oh well.. enough of this tamahome romance.. have to go back to reality! reality bites but it will set you free... right? :)

single and happy?

Most people who just got off a frustrating relationship will always say that they are now happy being so single and available. Some people also feel that being single is better than having a special someone even if they haven't been into a frustrating relationship. Wonder the reasons why these people feel being single is the best thing? Simple. It's because they enjoy their time either being alone or just being with their co-single friends.

I wonder..when is the time when one would say "Buh-bye" to his/her single life and realize that having someone special in your life is much better? Is it when you walk the street and find a couple cuddling and giggling like they are the only people on earth and instead of saying with bitterness "How pathetic is that? Cuddling in the middle of the street? I bet you guys don't go out with your friends to have fun!" you say "That's so sweet.. I wish I could find someone to cuddle with.."? Is it when you start calling all your friends from your phonebook just to plead to them to hook you up with the cutest friend they have? Is it when all of a sudden you could not sleep at night because you just can't stop thinking of how you want to handle your soon-to-come relationship? Or is it when all of your co-single friends that you used to go out with to have fun all day and night disappears out of the blue? Whatever the sign is, when it hits you without warning, you'll feel like you are the only person on earth!

Not that i'm in that situation right now... it's just that a close friend of mine and i were talking about how happy we are with our lives right now for being single (no 'extra gastos' to buy gifts for all the occasions, no calls at night to talk about nothing at all, no one to tell you what a b**tch you were when you guys fight for the tiniest thing, no one to ask where you are going and who you are going with, in short, 'wala kang pakielam at walang nangengeelam' - now, how fun is that right?) Suddenly, another friend who is committed and so inlove at the moment made the most annoying but funny comment - "I think you guys will feel your "singleness" when one of you commits cause you guys are inseparable since you guys are both single! when one of you get into a relationship, the other one would be left alone doing nothing at all but feel bitter" - owcake! so its true! it is the most possible thing that one could feel right? But just a thought... being single is not just a phase where you have fun with others or get wild all over with others like there is no tomorrow... but it is also a time to be involved with yourself. So what if your friends are committed? No one should be pressured to find a 'lover' just because you are the only single person on earth. there are still a lot of things to spend your time for, not to forget that these things would make you happy..

Whether one is single or not, happiness is to be found somewhere out there.. you just have to find the right place :)

holding on? or letting go?

just a thought to ponder on..

how can you express to the one you love that you really are in-love with him/her?

is it by holding on to the love you have and fighting for the foundation that you have built? letting the person realize that no one else can love him/her the way you did and still do? insisting that you stick around even if he/she does not want you anymore just to prove how much you love the person?

or is it the other way around and letting go of that person as soon as he/she tells you that he/she no longer needs and wants you? setting the person free even if it kills you just because his/her happiness would also eventually make you happy? saying goodbye to him/her even if it means losing the one person you truly love simply because that is what he/she desires?

how sad... so so sad...

why do people often misunderstand what i say? i don't know if its them or me.. but i just can't comprehend why people get affected with every word i say? am i that tactless? is it really bad to express what i feel? or even just to share the things i have encountered for a day?

what bothers me is that even when i'm away from them, they hear what i say (or should i say they get some gossips that i'm saying this and that).. i'm just so tired of explaining myself... why do i have to explain myself in the first place if i know that i'm not doing any harm to anyone? im so frustrated...

sometimes i just feel like shutting up.. but hello?! can i do that?! can i please everyone? can i really just shut up forever?

starting a new year by getting into the blog craze

i know i know... this 'blog fad' had been going on for who knows when and i'm just starting to get into this craze.. but why did i really create this blog? i aint much of a writer and people would not see me as someone who will let other people know my thoughts..ok, so i admit.. im bored and that's the reason i created this blog. BUT while i was signing up, i also had a thought.. this 'blog thing' could actually work for me! i can keep track of my life! i'm one person who forgets easily..guess i'm one of those people who is a member of the short-term memory loss society..haha whatever! hey! today is the start of a new year which means today is a start of the archive of my life.. wachutink? coolness huh?! :) but seriously, im just bored.. i may continue this thing or just stop from here.. who knows?! so lets just wait and see if i end up making entries or not.. btw, thanks to those people who touched my life during the year 2005! looking forward to meeting new people and having some more adventures in life for 2006 :) HAFEE NU YIR all! Godbless us ALL! ^_^